world of love

I was in 9th grade. A girl was sitting next to me in English class. I told him YOU are MY best friend. But I wanted to look at her silky hair and make her mine. But he wasn't looking at ME the way I was looking at him, I knew that. After class, he asked ME for the notes because he was not in the last class. When I gave him the notes, he thanked me and kissed me on the cheek. I wanted him to know that I didn't just want him as a friend. I loved it but I could not say. I didn't know why, but I was very shy.

When I was in 10th grade, my phone rang. He was the one who called. He was crying, saying how love broke his heart. He invited me to his house. He said he didn't want to be alone. Of course, I went. I sat next to him on the couch. Looking at her beautiful eyes, I wanted her to be mine. After 2 hours, a movie of Drew Barrymore started. After watching the movie, he decided to sleep. He thanked ME for everything and kissed me on the cheek. The day before the prom, he came to me and said his girlfriend was sick. I also didn't have a boyfriend to go with. In the 7th grade, we promised each other that if we didn't have a boyfriend, we would go together. And as 2 best friends, we went to the mall together. That day was very beautiful. Everything was fine. After the night, I gave him a ride home. I looked at her in front of the door, she looked more beautiful to ME. He looked at me with his beautiful eyes and smiled. I wanted him to be MINE. I knew that he wasn't looking at me the way I was looking at him. He kissed me on the cheek saying that I had the best day of my life. Days passed and the day of graduation arrived. I was looking at him all day. When he went on stage to receive his diploma, he was like an angel floating in the air. Before going home she came to me and hugged ME crying. Then he put his head on my shoulder and kissed my cheek saying YOU are MY best friend. Years passed. Now I am watching that girl's marriage. Yes, he was already married. I watched with my own eyes as she entered a new life married to another man. Newbefore entering life, he came to me, thanked me for coming to my wedding and kissed ME on the cheek. The years have come and gone very quickly. Now I am looking at the coffin of the girl who was once MY best friend. When his belongings were removed, a diary written during his school years was found. The lines I read in the diary were:

``I LOOKED IN HIS EYES AND WISHED HE WAS MINE. BUT HE WASN'T LOOKING AT ME THE WAY I WAS LOOKING AT HIM, I KNEW THAT. I WANT HIM TO KNOW THAT I DON'T JUST WANT HIM AS A FRIEND.

I LOVED IT BUT I COULDN'T SAY IT. I DIDN'T KNOW WHY BUT I WAS SO ASHAMED....I WISH HE WOULD TELL ME HE LOVED ME JUST ONCE...

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